Have you had a moment in your life when you wanted the ground to just open up and swallow you whole to never be heard from again?
I have had a few but one is a clear front runner.  I was seeing this guy years ago in my early twenties.  To say I was hooked on this guy would be an understatement.  He was the guy I experienced my first orgasm with. I was young and dumb back then because I was quite inexperienced in the world of romance.  We were not exclusive which, of course, was something I wanted but he could not provide but I nonetheless stuck with him.
He invited me over to his place one evening.  I thought we were going to spend some quality time together but as I pulled into the parking lot of his apartment building I noticed two girls getting out of their car and walk toward his apartment.  I sat frozen in my car watching as he opened the door and let these women in.  “Did he forget I was coming over?’ immediately flashed in my head.  I sat there in the car waiting to see if the girls were going to leave.  About 3 minutes later he came out accompanied by the two women carrying a bag.  Apparently he was headed to work.  My dumb ass didn’t know what to do at that moment so I ducked down so he couldn’t see me. Bright idea seeing as I was parked directly in front of his building!  I was hoping they would all get in their respective cars and drive off without noticing me there.  No chance.  I looked up and saw him looking at me through the car window.  I didn’t know what to do so I just started the car and drove off!
I was mortified.  I am sure he thought I was a crazed stalker or something.  In all these years we have never EVER discussed that incident.
I still cringe when I think of that moment.
 
 
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