Ok you pissed me off higher then I've been pissed in a LONG time. I asked you to take mom to her CT Scan appointment to help out because afterall, she is YOUR mother too. I need some help and it's time you stepped up to the plate.

I asked you to do this ONE thing but NOOOOOOOOOOO! That was just a little too much. Your arrogant, rude, disrespectful ass have absolutely no regard for anyone else's time. You think the world revolves around you so much that you thought it was ok to take mom to her appointment 1 HOUR LATE. Oh yeah...you thought having her wait that long and just showing up to the radiology clinic an hour late was fine and they would just take her. But NOOOOOOOOOOO!!! They told your stupid ass that they wouldn't take her because you were AN HOUR late so now I have to take MORE time off work and take her to do something YOU should have done. How arrogant and disrespectful is that to think it's ok to totally blow off an appointment like that? To think that you can show up whenever the hell you feel like and it would be ok...fuck whatever else anyone has going on or that these people had OTHER PATIENTS TO SEE is the height of arrogance. BITCH!!!

I don't care that I am only 4' 11 and 130lbs and you are 6'5 and 300 PLUS pounds......I will still drop kick you right in the back of your throat and beat that ass.

Can you tell I am pissed right now?

Ok, why did I get a call at work from a really good friend yesterday? She and I are talking about her upcoming TV game show appearance when all of a sudden she exclaims, "What is going on with my car? I ...think...I ....am...running...out...of ....gas....!"

My immediate response was, "Well, how far are you from a gas station?"

She says, "I'm not sure. Oh my goodness...I'm slowing down! I think I am really out of gas. I've been driving with my gas light on for the last three days."

Me, *Blank stare* "You do realize that the gas light means you need gas right?"

My Friend, "Everyone's a critic."

Me, *Laughing hysterically*

My Friend, "I gotta go call AAA. Bye!"

This has been an extremely weird and sad day. My bosses boss died over the weekend. I liked her alot and she was a very smart, cool lady. I should have known something was up when my boss called me and requested I call her at home yesterday. That's when she told me the news.

I don't know, it hit me kinda hard. It's difficult to realize that I will never see this woman walk into the office ever again. Man it's weird.

Although we were bought out recently by a VERY large company our office here in MD is still very small. We are pretty close knit here and I love that so everyone is taking this pretty hard. The home office acted quickly and got us grief counselors in early this morning. That was FAST. I must say that it really helped to have them there.

Now here is the crazy part. Women, I know we all want to look our best...God knows I do but we have to really look at the risk we are taking.

This woman died from complications of a tummy tuck. Totally senseless. If you remember....this is the same thing Kanye West's mother died from a few months ago.

OK, if I were ever considering (and I'm not) a tummy tuck this was the wake up call I needed to give that whole nonsense up.

I still can't believe this.

Ok, a friend of my boss's asked me to hang out with her so...I did. We decided to go to Bonefish Grill for drinks and dinner.

Well let me tell ya.....I am NOT a drinker but I decided to woman up and order a drink. As I perused the drink menu I noticed something called a Pomegranate Martini. That sounded pretty damn yummy so I decided to partake. I mean I like pomegranates and I had a Key Lime Martini in Jackson MS that was to die for so I figured how could I go wrong so I ordered it.

Well let me tell you...all I can say is DAMN!! That is some kinda good!

If you are ever in Bonefish Grill order yourself a Pomegranate Martini. You'll thank me later. Trust.

Uuuuhhhh..... men. This goes for you too.

Things have been really confusing at The Diva's house lately. The Analyst and I are still in this weird area. One minute he is very distant and the next he's all playful.

Bottom line is that I am still not getting what I want and need from him. I was driving into work this morning and began tearing up as I know I need to get him out of my house and the realization is painful. I knew he needed to go before but because he's still there and going back and forth with this behavior of one minute wanting me and the next not wanting anything to do with me is confusing and frustrating me which I told him it would do if we kept this up. It just keeps sucking me back in when I think I've pulled away.

I need peace and to maintain my sanity and the only way to do that is to get him out.

I am convinced he doesn't really care about me. He just doesn't want to live in a strange place with a strange person (getting a roommate) because he can't afford an apartment on his own right now. That is the real reason he doesn't want to leave my home. I've said as much to him but of course he denies it but a person can tell in their soul whether a person is into them or not and The Analyst does not act like someone that is into me or wants a relationship at all. His "moments of possibility" are killing me.

I just want peace people.

I feel I am in limbo because I can't really emotionally move on or even date a little with him still in the picture and that is not fair to me. I've been talking to and hanging out with The Manager a little here and there (no sex....not my style) but I feel I can't take that any further if I wanted too because of The Analyst still hanging around.

I just want to have peace, date a little, just have fun (nothing serious as yet) for now until Mr. Right comes along eventually but I can't feel free with him at my house.

UGH!!!

I don’t think men realize just how serious marriage and kids are to some of us women. No one wants to spend the rest of their lives alone. Most of us want a spouse that will be there waiting for us when we get home armed with a warm smile, kiss and hug along with a “How was your day honey?” It gives us warmth, depth and purpose.

There are some of us that are so serious we’ve made dating and marriage an art form.

There are a few in our society that actually are not the marrying type and that’s ok but for some, the thought of not finding a mate is quite disturbing.

I have a really good friend that lives in Charlotte NC. She moved there with the sole purpose of finding a husband and having kids because North Carolina is touted as the Mecca of single men.

Well since she’s moved there almost 2 years ago she hasn’t had any real prospects to speak of until very recently. She met a promising man; they went on 4 dates mind you. My friend regales tales of laughter, great conversation, mild flirting and a definite connection. This man went away for a 6 week overseas vacation. After which time, my friend, thinking he’s surely back by now, called and left a message on his voicemail to call when he got a chance. He never called. She is now left wondering what went wrong. Is there something wrong with her?

This has forced her into a depression. She has even decided to begin seeing a therapist to help her deal with the looming knowledge that she may never have the husband and kids she so desperately wants.

Why is it so difficult for some to find a date much less a spouse and others seem to effortlessly fall into multiple marriages?

I wonder if my friend is taking this all too much to heart. When I begin to wonder that I then try to put myself in her shoes and realize that the thought of being alone for the rest of my life is very disheartening to say the least. I do have an understanding of where she is coming from.

I’ve been married before so I am coming from a different perspective. When people find out I’m divorced a sense of “Aaawww...I’ve been there too” or “I so totally understand.” envelopes the vibe of the conversation and it seems cool. But when we meet someone in their late 30’s and older that have never been married we wonder “What is wrong with you?” Even though I feel that is a terrible way to think I find myself wondering the same thing. “Why haven’t you been married before? What is wrong with you?” Sad I know.

Hey everyone. I hope you all had a good weekend. My weekend was crazy. I might not have mentioned this before but my mother is disabled and wheelchair bound. Well, she had a fall this past Saturday. Luckily my niece was with her and called so I drove out there to help get her up into her chair. Very difficult process as I am a very small woman and my mother is extremely heavy. So we finally got her into her chair and comfortable. She was very sluggish and weak this day which alarmed me. I had a talk with her and she realized that she can no longer live in that house. I stayed with her the rest of the day and then all day Sunday to make sure she's ok.

It really bothers me that she is home because too many harmful things can happen. She needs so much care that an assisted living facility is the best place for her.

Well I spent alot of time yesterday making calls, visitng facilites and trying to get things situated and I will do the same today. We found a really nice place that she will like and the bonus is that it's right down from my house so I can see her everyday if need be. Things are looking good that she will be able to get into her new place by weeks end. Monday at the latest. I feel really good about that. It will relieve so much pressure from me to know she is being taken care of.

My brother's fiance has been so wonderful and helpful through all this. More so then my other brother who I haven't spoken to since Saturday. Whatever.

Ok...off to visit your blogs!