Here in the Baltimore area, the weather was SPECTACULAR this past weekend! Absolutely beautiful. Mr. Construction and I decided to have a little picnic in the park. I went to the store and gathered all of the materials we would need. Brought them home and arranged them nicely in a basket. Mr. Construction arrived and we were on our way.
We found the most perfect spot for a picnic and set up camp there. I was charged with bringing the music and cd player as well so we had some awesome music.
The whole experience was wonderful. We connected on a level we hadn’t up to that point.
I’ve come to realize that he is a very cautious guy. He is slow and meticulous and takes his time as not to get hurt. I can understand and respect that. Let me tell you though that the way this man looks at me, the way he kisses me and the way he touches me tells me far more then his words ever could.
He is falling for me and he is trying really hard to slow it down but he can not. He constantly tells me he really likes me. He asks me numerous relationship questions trying gauge how I conduct myself and react to my partner when I’m in a relationship. He tells me all the time how he wants to spend so much more time with me. He even asked me last night if I would like to meet his family one of these days of course after telling me once again how much he enjoyed our time together at the picnic.
Yep….this guy has been bitten. No denying that. I’m just sitting back and enjoying this.
The Manager is still around but I’m not sure for how long. Even though Mr. Construction and I are getting closer, The Manager just doesn’t seem to be in a place right now in his life where he can devote time to a relationship. I see that so clearly now. I am thinking I need to let him go really soon.
I’m leery about that because I have had many “false starts”. You all know what I mean…..things are wonderfully delicious in the beginning of a budding relationship. You both are bringing your best representative to the party and you start to think this could be the one then 4 months later you are let down and disappointed when the “real” person decides to show up.
The Analyst still calls. He got a new job which I am really glad for him. His previous job really took him for a loop which was a huge problem between us. I hope he finds happiness soon.
I’m not sure where this ride will lead me too but I will just sit back and enjoy it.
Reimagine journaling
1 year ago
Labels: Dating, love