Friday, April 13, 2007

Not a Good Day

Ok, I finally did it. My boyfriend and I had this big blow up this morning. I have been very quiet and short with him the past couple of days because he upset me a few nights ago when I was trying to get affectionate with him and he pushed me aside. That was the absolute last straw. I am so sick of him pushing me aside and rejecting me when I am trying to get close. I flat out told him that I don’t feel he really gives a damn about me and that he really doesn’t want to be there with me so I’m done.

I asked him how long it will take for him to move out and he wanted to know how much time I was giving him. I am not giving him any specific time limit as yet but he is definitely on notice that I want him out.

This is very hard for me because I really care for him. I am so sick of one failed relationship after another. I am at a point in my life I need a husband. I want someone to share my life with. Someone who will appreciate me and he does not. I gave so much of myself only to have him hold back everything from me.

This is such a sad day for me. I am on the verge of tears every 5 minutes but deep down I know this is for the best. I deserve someone who will love me and who really want to be with me. I’m just so tired of being alone though.

Oh well, another on bits the dust.

16 People saying stuff:

lisa q. said...

thanks so much for your comment diva. i'm sorry to hear about the break up, but you know what? you hit the nail on the head when you said you deserve someone who will love you and really want to be with you. don't settle for anything less. i'll be thinking about you!

laughingattheslut said...

Well, I am sorry to hear that you feel bad, but I'm not really sorry to hear about the break up. I think that it was going to happen, and I think it is better sooner than later.

Sometimes, your situation sucks, but I think that mine sucks worse. And if you hadn't ended it soon, a few years from now you'd probably be in my situation.

It doesn't even sound like he put up much of an arguement. Just wanted to know how much longer he could stay in the house. Getting on with your life is the right thing to do.

The Diva's Thoughts said...

Lisa and Laughing - You guys are so right. I just have to dust myselfoff and move on. It is for the better. It just stings a little you know.

dmarks said...

Maybe I read too much into this, but I saw that you care for him, and are not actually in love with him. Not that this will make you feel better right now, but from what you wrote in other posts he seemed less like "love of your life" material as time went on.

Now you can and will find someone much better, right?

Princess Extraordinaire said...

I am sorry you're going through this - even when things are the best for us they still sometimes hurt so freaking much. Just trust your heart and stick with those you know love you.

Rachel said...

Breaking up is difficult in even the best situation.
I hope that you are able to work through this and that the next man that you meet is the right one.
I firmly believe that for a relationship to work both parties have to have the mindset that they can't believe that the other person picked them. If you treasure each other it makes everything amazing.

i am the diva said...

the right one is out there...

don't give up.

Augs Casa said...

Hi,

No worries, you've probably been told time after time the right one will come along. All I can say is,when you least expect it, expect it. You deserve better. I mean look on the bright side, you could be living with a DraMa Queen....ha ha ha hang in there, it gets better.

CarmenSinCity said...

I know what you are going through. It sucks to be suddenly single again when you really thought that this was the man you were going to share the rest of your life with. Just like everyone else said, you deserve so much better and you will never be free to meet the man of your dreams until you get rid of the old baggage that is weighing you down.

laughingattheslut said...

If you decide to go shopping or something like that to feel better, take a limited amount of cash with you, and leave the credit cards in the trunk of the car.

Avin said...

Oh honey I am sorry. This kind of thing never feels good. I did just what you are doing now, and though it wasnt easy, it was absolutley essential. Things will get better I promise, and if you need a friendly ear let me know.

Freckle Face Girl said...

It isn't easy going through this. I was at the same point 7 years ago. Even when you know you need to be, it is hard to be tough. This is a good step in the right direction.

laughingattheslut said...

You need to write something as soon as possible so we know that you survived the weekend.

TAG said...

Soooo much better to discard the wrong guy than to settle for less than you deserve and regret it for the rest of your life.

As I said in a post a few months ago Expect More

TAG

Erica AP said...

That really sucks but it does sound like it's for the best. I've been single now for a year... And yes it gets lonely but I have sworn off searching for someone because I always get let down. So now I just try to enjoy being by myself... I'm sure you will find someone someday too. :)

brookem said...

i know this is late... but im very sorry to hear about the breakup. thinking of you and hoping for brighter days in the future.